The roller coaster that is my life

So I've been planning this trip for months now. I've contacted all the right people. I've gotten places to stay, my light kit came in and my car came back from the shop. This morning was the beginning of what was supposed to be a 2 week trip to Houston and back. Unfortunately, my car had other plans.

A while ago I got a fix-it-ticket for my front driver side headlight being out. No biggie. I just have to stop in and show the cops I got a new bulb. I pull into the police station and park. I then proceed to get out my car walk in and find out that I have to go to another station because they aren't cool enough to look at the shitclipse. No biggie. It'll put me in Vegas about 30 min late but I'm fine with that. I'll be rolling in after dark anyway. I go back to my car and sit down. I put the key in the ignition, turn it and "click click whine". I laugh to myself and swear. I try it again and "nothing". I then proceed to punch the ceiling so hard there is now a dent.

It turns out that there is a short somewhere in my engine. The alternator works and the battery works but the power from the alternator won't reach the battery. WHAT THE FUCK!

So now I'm here, stranded, looking for flights out of San Diego to Houston. It's looking like it'll cost just as much for the ticket alone as it would have to drive there and back.

FML.

The hardest things in life are generally the easiest to achieve.

So it would seem that at this point in my life there have been only a few really hard things that I've had to deal with; my mother nearing death, running out of toilet paper when I really need it, breaking off a very long term relationship and confronting friends about situations that need addressing. I did that last one tonight and realized something. Generally the hardest things in life tend to be the easiest.

I prepared myself for the worst. For the past week I literally have been sweating bullets and chickening out every chance I got. I was loading up my car after spending the night naked in the hot tub with 4 of my closest friends and finally the words stumbled from my lips. To my surprise, things went exactly had I told myself a thousand times they would. I got the initial blank stare then I heard the words I hoped, and ultimately knew I would. No harm done, no yelling, no lost friendship and in the end I got what I wanted. It was that easy.

Why was I such a pansy? Why did I wait this long? I suppose because that in the end, I'm a complete knuckle-head. I've had quite a few people urging me to just do it already and it turns out that they were completely correct. The bad scenario in my mind was a total farce. I think it's that way with a lot of things and the best way to remedy a situation like this is to dive in head first and do the deed. So next time you're in a tough spot, use the band-aid approach. Quick and painless (sometimes painful). It's the only way to live.

Semi-epic post.

So as far as an epic blog is concerned, here's what I've got.


The past few weeks have been a whirlwind of emotions. I've graduated which means I've left all my friends, both at ONU and LAFSC behind without any sure promise of seeing a single one of them. It's sort of bittersweet. I mean I have those friends like Tracey and Elena that I know will be around for a good long while but at the same time I'm probably going to lose contact with a lot of people that I got very close to (especially at LAFSC).
I've also become a lot closer with a friend here in San Diego. I'm not sure at this moment where it'll take us but at the very least we've become much better friends. I think we're both hoping it'll become more than that but until I get a few things sorted out, I'm sort of stuck in this no-man's land where I can't move forward and I don't want to pull back. (I'm going to catch a ton of shit for writing this but eh... WTF who cares right?)
I've also put back on about 5-10 pounds that I'd lost at LAFSC. That needs to change. I think I might try the whole vegan thing or raw foodist thing again for a short time. Not because I want to save the poor baby cows (God... I freaking LOVE veal) but more to teach myself to eat healthier. No more fries!
I got my light kit in the mail today and that made me super happy. I got to play with it and stuff. I can't wait to set up my first interview with it! Oooooh I'm getting stoked just thinking about it!
My car is going in the shop tomorrow and then I'm going to start on my road trip. I'm getting really excited about it actually. I have just a little money and a lot of time. OOOOOOH this is going to be hella fun! If anyone wants me to stop by (I suppose most of my readers are from san diego...) just shoot me a message and I'll crash on your couch for a night!
umm what else. I love all of you for reading this and leaving me comments... however if you don't leave comments then you forfeit my love. Simple as that.

TBA

Epic blog tonight.. Maybe.

Reflections of an ass hole

Ok since my last post I've be doing a sort of social experiment.

Here's what I've found:
Being a complete jerk doesn't work. I tried it with no luck.
Being a nice guy still doesn't work. Thomas enjoy it (she's moving back in a month)
The trick is finding that happy medium and going for it. I have had a little luck with being arrogant and over-confident. That seems to be the best trick for getting women to notice you. For the time being I'm going to continue on this path and see where it lands me. I'll keep you posted. Haha.

A real blog will be coming soon I promise...